with emotion for the first time in weeks at the sight of these:These mini sodas (that come in crazy holiday flavors) were one of the many treats my little ones associate with my grandfather. They see these and they think him. When Henry asked if we could get some, I said sure.

Later when I opened the fridge and saw them sitting there. My heart plummeted at the realization that he is gone.  It’s been five months and on so many levels I have gone through the stages of grief in a healthy way. Until yesterday, when I hear my kids laughing outside and my heart aches for the man we all miss so much.

We drink these and toast to you Jich, because we think of you all the time.